I don't know why I get these sores on my skin, I've gotten them since my late teens.
Basically, I know what it is not:
not rosacea, not lupus, not fungus, not pimples, not psoriasis, not leprosy.
Am I sick?? If I am, I have been for a LOOOONG time.
What I do know is it gets worse when my mind & body are under great stress.
Which seems to be a lot...you know, it's called life.
I work on trying to keep my life simple, but it doesn't seem to be enough.
For so many years it has made me want to hide my face, edit all my pictures so I look "normal".
I'd rather have smooth, wrinkle free skin that glowed luminously.
I lamely try to joke about it, deflecting some of the pain.So many have such bigger problems, why does this hold me back so much?
It hurts when someone looks at me like I might be contagious, I'm not.
I know it projects unspoken scenarios to those who don't know me or won't bother to take the time.
This morning when the mirror and I had our morning session,
I discovered this new thing on my right temple.
It was in the shape of a heart!
It was in the shape of a heart!
Be things as they may, this sore/blemish/flaw made me smile.
Then I decided it actually was kind of cool, so I decided to share it with you.
Here I am, as I really am today, with marks on my face.
Like I said, it's not contagious, but I hope maybe it will make you smile.
Love, Laura
Love Your picture Laura! I see the heart! Kind of cool! I have dealt with rashes (For lack of a better word) since I was a kid too! Doctors, Allergy doctors, Dermatologists were quite common, but no real answers either. Food allergies were some of the problem, and like you mentioned, stress is another. So sorry you have a daily struggle with it. I do love the heart. If you are going to have some bumps, patterns are the way to go! LOL!
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ReplyDeleteI sometimes wonder what would happen if our blogging buddies saw us "photoshop free" in Hobby Lobby. Would they recognize us 10 years older, wrinkles, rashes, unwhitened teeth etc LOL Its kinda funny really.
Kudus to you for being yourself. I'm letting my hair go gray and that takes a bit of courage too in this world. But I was just tired of being what I thought others expected me to be. Now I'm me. Completely. 100%. I even updated my profile pic to show my most recent appearance.(So I wouldn't be living in the past) although I did even my skintone a bit and add mascara. LOL But no more than makeup would do.
Your rash probably drives you crazy just not knowing what it is. I'm glad you can find the humor in it, humor seems to work when all else fails.
Nevermind, your skin will be as new as a baby's butt in the new system.
This was really touching. I really like how you shared your feelings because we're all so scared to let our true selves out. Hoorah for you!!
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