I haven't touched my crafting table for WELL over a month.
I'm resigning from all the design teams I have been on up to date.
Maybe I'm going through a massive depression, maybe I've just changed... I don't know.
I'm not in a happy place and feel like I'm at the bottom of a very deep pit.
I don't feel it's right to continue to be part of a design team and not contribute in some way to them. I hate the thought of quitting, but I really need to change my focus.
I'm just not feeling the satisfaction and fun of making things right now.
Money worries are very real and I need to focus on keeping my family as stable as possible.
Any day now my electricity, internet, and phone service could be disconnected, as well as being evicted from our main home.
I'm 3 months behind in the mortgage, and have way too many bills going to collections.
My husband has moved out of state (2 months ago) to get better work, so now we also have 2 households to pay for when we couldn't afford 1.
"Happy Anniversary" by phone is our celebration. woot.woot.
Part of the reason I was on design teams is so that I could "afford" the digis. So many crafters say they "it's for the love of the art". I always figgured it was more of a give and take sort of thing. Someone provides the art & I make a sample to show off for them.
I can't even imagine what a true pain it must be to try to run a digi art company or even a challenge blog right now. Thanks for giving me the opportunity to be on your teams.
Several of the teams/sponsors have changed policies so that it has turned out more of a pain than a privilege for me.
I do have several teams that I will miss being on, challenges, chatting about daily life....and some that I just never meshed with... they probably won't even notice...
If any of y'all want me back, let me know, maybe I'll have a brighter outlook later on...
Love, Laura
Laura, although things seem to be all bad right now in your life, keep your chin up and just keep putting one foot in front of the other. I know from the last three years of my life, things were very dark, going through a separation and then divorce, but with friends, family and prayers most of my days are now brighter. Some days things seem to be going downhill, but I just keep plugging along knowing that there are better days ahead.
ReplyDeleteI truly hope and pray that your life will improve, and that you keep on creating - some days that was all I had to look forward to, even if it was to just take a break from the bad things!
WE are going to miss you Laura!! CHn up, things will be better again soon!! :)
ReplyDeleteLots of hugsxx
Hi Laura, sorry to hear things are not going to well. Just hang in there, your children need you and things always have a way of turning out. We have all been there at one point or another, Blessings Hilde
ReplyDeletePersevere in prayer Laura. When we feel down you must remember that Jehovah is there. This world is so near its end now. In my prayers.
ReplyDeleteHugs Sarah x
I echo Sarah's comment Laura..I'm so sorry to hear things are so very bad for you. Knowing things were going to get so hard doesn't make it easier to bear, I know, but we do have a sure hope. I pray you can cling to that in the darkest of times. Keeping you in thought and prayer. Love and hugs. Lin
ReplyDeleteWe all seem to be getting hit quite hard these days. So sorry for all that is going on in your life. I took a break from the blogging thing myself for a little while. Too overwhelming with all that is going on. It often feels as if we are alone, but we have the brotherhood and of course the one that gives us the greatest strength of all. You are in our prayers. Don't loose touch entirely. We still have e-mail and would love to know how you are doing when you are up to it.
ReplyDeleteYou and your family are in my prayers! I hope things start looking up for you soon!
ReplyDeleteOh I'm so sorry to hear things are overwhelmingly discouraging to bear right now. What a life we live in this system, can't wait for "the real life", cos this one just stinks. Totally understand you're wanting to take a break from the DTs, I'm cutting back, just have other things I want to do as well as make cards(much as I still love it)and of course family is most important. I'll keep you in my prayers sweetie, fight the fine fight and you will never want for what really matters.
ReplyDeleteHugs and kisses across the miles,
Dorcas
Laura, I really hope the best for you and your family. I don't know if you believe in the power of prayer, but I will pray that at least your mind is at ease. All the best in the future.
ReplyDeleteLaura, I'm also so sad to hear about your issues. Unfortunately, as others have mentioned, most of us are suffering in much the same way. It's only by having faith in Jehovah, we can be sure that we will be able to make it. I just got out of a five-day stay in the hospital, and like you, I have no mojo. You are in my prayers, too. Hugs, dj
ReplyDeleteLaura, I hope everything works out for you. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteLaura, I miss you and hope you are doing well. xo
ReplyDeleteHello Laura! Stopping by via The Outlawz to check up on you. Hoping things are looking brighter for you today. To many demands from design teams could leave anyone without mojo. I don't know how anyone can be on so many teams it just goes to show that some teams are not going to get their designers full attention and feelings are going to be hurt in the process. One reason I love The Outlawz, no rules changing all the time everyone you meet is super duper nice and helpful in many ways. Noticed your post is from May, I do pray you and your hubby have made it to the same household. Times sure are tough these last few years for most of us, I do hope things are looking better for you.
ReplyDeleteI hope you've found your mojo again. It's nice to visit a blog from someone in the family.
ReplyDeleteBest wishes and hopefully you will get your desire to create again. I know theocratic activities take first palace, but I'm sure you could find a little something to get you going.
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